Appointment Tomorrow

Wow... so it's happening... things are getting underway again and I'm feeling a bucket of emotions. Excitement to be starting another cycle. Impatience that this cycle will take so long. Apprehension at the drug I'll be taking (Lupron). Anticipation of what to expect with the other drugs along the way. Butterflies at the possibility that this cycle could work. Fear that it won't. It's like a smorgasbord of emotions, most of which aren't pleasant. One of which.... hope... drives it.

So tomorrow I go in for remote monitoring at a clinic here in Texas. They just need to make sure I don't have any cysts and that my bloodwork (hormone levels) looks good before proceeding with Lupron injection. Costs $300 out of pocket for one measly appointment. Boo hiss.

Then once my doc has a look at my results I'll (or Homme InFertile will) administer the injection. And then we wait...

So if all goes well, looks like I'd be starting the meds for this cycle November 30th with transfer slated for December 15th. Fingers crossed all goes according to plan. Who knows how my body will respond. Eek. We just need to decide if I'll do monitoring locally here in Texas, or if I'll go to New York for a few weeks. 

Update and Adoption Considerations

It's been a while. I've taken a break to heal emotionally as well as physically. I recently went on a girls trip to Europe. Went all over in two weeks including Prague, Vienna, Venice, Rome, Malta, Aberdeen and Frankfurt. Quite the adventure and so so good for my soul and happiness.

Now that I'm back, of course I return to my family planning. I actually went and did a past life regression with Melanie Harrell who was trained by Brian Weiss. If you don't know who that is, he has a fabulous book called Many Lives, Many Masters. Anyway, she took me back to a few past lives, the second of which had an impact on my fertility. *trigger warning* I was supposedly raped by my father in that life which may have been leading to some blockages in my 2nd Sacral Chakra. If you don't know anything about Chakras, a quick google on the Sacral Chakra will explain that it all has to do with sexuality and creative forces.... so reproductive organs beware ;)

Anyways, was all very interesting and therapeutic regardless of whether you believe in it or not. I felt much lighter and got some much needed emotional healing from this.

I'm not sure I'm quite ready to dive into trying to conceive again (naturally or otherwise) but I have been in contact with Dr. Dulemba's office in Denton, Tx and scheduled a phone consultation regarding a laparoscopy etc. Apparently he's one of the best!

On another note, I've been heavily researching our adoption options. We are scheduled to attend an open adoption seminar to learn about the process. I've also put in a preliminary application with an agency to see if they'd be willing to work with us since we're Canadians living in the US but no green cards or citizenship. So we'll see what they have to say. I anticipate there being many a hurdle on that front. Hence "you can always just adopt" being a really annoying invalid statement (as well-intentioned as it often is). It's also absurd how much it all costs. Ugh... maybe we won't be buying a home next year. Boo.

So that's my quick update... where things are at with me right now. I've been enjoying not being so strict on a diet, and just relaxing into living life. It's important to take care of ourselves throughout this journey and that has certainly been my focus these last few months.

I'll keep ya'll posted!